Damnation. I refuse to believe that I will be 28 years old in less than a week! There are so many things I haven't yet done, so many things I need to accomplish before I can deem myself worthy of admitting I will soon be hitting the 3-0 mark.
It's not fair since I spent my younger years in a cocoon. Had I stayed with my grandfather, doubtless I'd have been exposed to life a lot earlier and thus lived earlier. But I did not. My decision to stay with my mother meant that the next 14 years of my life would revolve around a battle to keep my sanity and ability to function in society.
Where am I right now? Finally independent and beginning to learn a number of things that I should be able to do on my own. I only have one source of income and using that one source I start establishing myself. It will be a long way to go. I feel as if I'm playing an RPG. Just as well it's my favorite genre. So with my limited cash flow I change my wardrobe, develop my habits, make connections, and eventually start saving up to get a notch higher in life.
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On the work front, I'm disappointed by a fellow I considered my best friend. He was not the person I thought he was. I never realized that he had a tendency to lie. Normally it's alright with me since I tend to take those things in stride but when I found out that he has the habit of boasting to the point of tarnishing other people's reputation and leaving a company with debts unpaid... well, suffice to say I'm seeing him now in a cold light. And with me, cold is not a good sign.
I've found a new circle of friends in my department. The camradarie is good and it makes my lonely life a little bit easier to bear now. I won't have to think of Keisha and her having a prospective boyfriend. I won't have to think of other women I'm crushing on. Although a crush is with my new circle. Hurrah for me.
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I won't have to send so much to Davao anymore. I have to prioritize myself, because otherwise I'm sunk in debt. For God's sake, my mother has a husband who has a job. I can't be expected to support her family's needs. It's bloody insane to do so when I can barely take care of myself.
About Me
- Erratum80
- Me? I make mistakes. A lot. But hopefully I make them only once. People often underestimate me. I'm a challenge to peg. That way, I can find out who I can consider true friends. I defy definitions. I exceed expectations.