Basecamp 3

Here's where I am right now.

Moved to another process in my company and I say it's been a very profitable for me. I met people who I'm happy to spend time with and there are less intrigues in comparison to my previous one. Before, there was at least 3 that I knew of. Now, it's only an intrigue of 1.

Also, beginning to stabilize my situation somewhat. I've gotten the hang of budgetting. Not yet as good as I would wish it to be but compared to how I fared months ago, it's a marked improvement.

Regarding the make-over, I think I'm making more progress inside my head than on the outside. Mindset is slowly changing and given enough time, I will finally shake off the legacy of spending 14 yrs with my mother's family. I'll finally be able to continue to become what I want to be.

I'm beginning to open up again to other people. And learning how to smile and actually mean it. I'm beginning to improve my social skills. Meh. Davao will be surprised when I do finally go back for a visit next year. It'll be a different person visiting them.

So many things I'm supposed to do. For now I do what I am capable of doing without financial costs. It's my bottleneck for now. Damn...

Also, I'm fully recovered from my last heartbreak. A new friend I made told me I should never give my all for love. Give my best but never all. It makes sense. It jives with what I learned about keeping a part of your heart for yourself.

For now, I'm not so obsessed with having a GF. Sure, a girl may actually deign to notice me. But for the here and now, I take what pleasures I can get and just enjoy life.

And maybe someday I can finally look at life a little bit more positively...