Monday. Monday Always Sucks.

Been an exhausting shift. I'm tired. On the bright side, there was free pizza. Any free pizza is by definition a good pizza. Same with beer. Free beer is good beer. They're to be enjoyed. Now if I can only have both free, I'm happy.

Also, it's a good thing it's the season for rain. I love rains. I don't know why. It's cooler, I think. I don't like warm weather when I was thinner. And now I'm heavier (or fatter) I hate warm weather even more. If it rains, I'm happy. I also enjoy walking under a drizzle. I like the feeling of raindrops fallin on my head. Nothing beats having coffee and cigarettes while watching the view while it's raining. It's peaceful. A time for reflections and thinking.

Mitch and I've been planning our trips this year. Ideally Baguio for September and Davao for December. It's going to cost me. Fare and other expenses will bleed me dry. Sigh. No avoiding it. It's been 17 years since I was last in Baguio. It's been 16 months since I was last in Davao. I want to visit my birth city. I have to visit the city where I grew up for the sake of family. If nothing else, I miss my siblings. I keep wondering how they look like, how they're doing right now. The youngest, Qayes, will be in high school soon. I'm sure he's growing out of his babyish looks. Well, gotta face it. Of the three of us males in our brood, he's the most good-looking.

I'm torn between buying a new console and saving up for my last semester. Hellspawn. Wants and Needs have never been neck-to-neck like this before. Life sucks. Hard. If only things were more linear. But if it was so, I'd be riling against life in general. It's funny. I push for independence and free will and now I have them, I'm almost immobilized by my choices. I know what I must do. Not too happy with it though. Funny. I not only want to have the cake, I want to have it too at the same time. Well, life's never like that. It never works the way we want it to.