Paradise Regained

Or rather in my case, I have a shot in finishing college. Finally.

I've waited 4 and a half years for this. Finances forced me to stop and start looking for work but now finances are a lot better, I'm back again. I don't know why but I seem to feel that being here is a chance to redeem myself. To put closure on an unfinished business.

Months ago before I enrolled this semester, I used to have nightmares about entering a classroom and finding out that I've been absent for the whole semester. Hence I paid for the sem, and will soon be taking an exam with no knowledge on what is covered. I don't scare from nightmares but that episode came close.

Turns out that it has a basis in truth... I don't have a grade in Math 331, Quantitatve Methods in Business. I didn't have an examination permit during the 2nd sem of 2002. Now I must re-enroll the subject just so my final grade from back then can be recognized today. Ha!

Just as well I quit my job when October began. Besides management paranoia, I don't think I could have simultaneously worked and studied. I mean, I have a jagged weekly schedule...

I fully intend to do well this time. I mean, I've been hungering for this for over 4 years. Back then I didn't have the proper motivation of what I was doing. Classes and quizzes and exams were just daily activities. But now... Now I look at them as if they're something that must be devoured at first sight. I'm 27 years old and I'm slowly beginning to fully realize that I'm not a kid anymore. My teen years are over a long time ago...