Musings about the heart

An odd topic for me. I mean, I'm not much of an emotional person. Let's face it. I'm not really an emotional person. Anybody gets near me, or too close, my shields go up. I won't get into the reasons. Story's too long and nobody wants a sob story.

Anyways, this subject came up because of an odd message that came in thru my Friendster account. Yes Virginia, there are still people who use Friendster. It's odd because it's from a guy who isn't really that close to me and the few times he did message, it was to do a background check and not ask about me personally.

The message basically repeated his previous questions. What kind of life did his current(?) girlfriend lead here in Davao. I had replied pretty much everything I know. As much as I was able to glean since I did pursue her romantically and I failed in catching her attention. I don't know if they're breaking up or anything but I'm pretty sure it's in a rocky state right now.

The girl in question doesn't have much going for her in terms of marriage considerations. Let's just say she's not built for long-term relationships. She tends to lose interest rather quickly. And a number of other criticisms that I've finally realized now that I'm not head over heels for her.

What surprises me is the fact that I tried to pursue her. Which is an odd thing for me to do. Must have been the hormones. Or most likely youthful idealism and naivety. Not anymore though. The past 18 months have been momentous for me. I'm not the same person as I was before. If anything, my shields are stronger.