Picking the pieces up

That's what I've been doing. Anyways, putting her out of my mind is working for now. Thank God for small comforts. Been doing nothing but focus on work and friends. But right now, even friends are having troubles and issues. Meh. Life. At least work's still ok.

I knew June would be tough. Still bearing the pressure. Still alive.

Heartbreak. Again.

So yeah. I was in the process of getting to woo her when she learned she still has feelings for her ex. Meh. Tough luck for me I suppose... I just wish she could have told me honestly if she still felt anything for her ex when we first met.

The damage's done. It's my trouble actually. Most of the time I don't feel anything. But when I do let the dam open, my emotions rage and churn with an intensity that scares me. Well, it's been a few weeks so the pain's not as intense anymore. But the pain is still there. As well as the occasional thought as to how she's doing.

I'm really tempted to pay for personal services. The only thing stopping me is my cash flow. Damn it all to oblivion.....